18.12.18, Berlin

 

It all comes probably down to this one question:

Are you happy?

Are you enjoy your current stage of life?

 

For me its rather hard to answer.

I kinda accomplished so far everything I could have ever imagined, I dont have any big regrets of the things I didn´t do.

But am I happy?

I would say technically yes. But honestly no.

I made this year the step to quit my job and start my own business, ok its more like a freelance thing still.

But right now I live it like its a business, I only do the stuff I wanna do, sleep long, watch movies.
It´s like spring break form school all over again.

The only thing that missing are the constantly friends hanging around and doing shit. But I guess its just how life goes.

They moved on, I have to do, too.

I kinda got the feeling, what is still missing are 2 things, #1 a successfull and running business of my own and #2 a muse and female companion to share this amazing time with.

I´m pretty confident, that I manage to do the first sooner or later. (I guess about the next 2-3 years.)

But I´m not so sure about the latter.

 

Cause Business I can control myself, finding the right woman not so much.

 

But its a quite simple analogy

With the wrong one, you can´t do anything right.

But with the right one, you can´t anything wrong.

But its actually getting better, looking back I met a couple of woman who met the criteria. The feeling I wanted to have, when I´m with them.

The only downer is, mostly the feeling didn´t last.

The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters. | Friedrich Nietzsche

So I´m gonna go live my life.

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